I'm not sure why it came to this point, but I think my lack of appreciation last night, accompanied by whatever has happened between us since then, has done some damage to what Bailey and I had. I don't know -- it just seems that things have cooled off so much. Have I gotten boring? Predictable? Useless as a life partner? I have no clue.
I'll readily admit that the "surprise" she had promised was not what I was expecting, and I guess I could say that I thought it would be something for me, in my selfishness. But I should have been more appreciative. I will try to apologize for this later, but it just seems so.. I don't know.
I guess what I want is...
Oh I don't know.
*****
Cadaes is dead now, killed by some demon assassin late in the night. I was surprised that Gwyn would call upon me to examine this, but I did, Bailey and Christopher following soon after. I tracked about the scene of the crime, but physical evidence was hard to come by. Bailey surmises that someone could have Trumped the demon to this location, had it do its dirty work, and Trump out. I think that would require a lot of brains, but I suppose just about anyone in Amber could have pulled it off.
As I stood in the shadows of the study, and then later Gerard's manorhouse, I realized that all of the foreshadowing of events to come has just now began a slow rolling motion. Hopefully I can stop it before the snowball becomes too big to deal with. Helping Gwyn investigate this keeps my mind off other things right now, and so I will continue on that vein.
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