"Tora to uma ga doushita nante iwanai de yo.
"Please don't ask me what a tiger and horse have to do with it.
Ore, kodomo no koro, o-tousan ni gyakutai sareteta kara."
When I was a kid, I was abused by my father."
"Aa?"
"Huh?"
Ikinari hebii na hanashi dakedo, mishiranu yatsu da shi, kore'kkiri no aite da shi, odorokasareta bun, chotto shikaeshi shite yaritai kibun de itte shimatta.
It was a serious topic to bring up all of a sudden, but this was a
complete stranger, and he'd never see the guy again, so he said it because he wanted to get a bit of revenge for the shock he suffered.
"4~5-sai no koro ne.
"It was when I was about four or five years old.
Naguru keru wa atarimae.
Hitting and kicking was a matter of course.
Ichiban shindokatta no wa, gohan tabesasete moraenakatta koto ka na.
I suppose the hardest part was not being allowed to eat.
Demo, yoku aru kotcha nai. Seken ja saa."
But it happens all the time, doesn't it? In society."
"Yoku aru kaa?"
"It happens a lot?"
"Iru to omou yo, kekkou.
"I think it's pretty common.
Ore no ba-ai, imada ni chotto bouryoku kyoufushou'tte kanji.
In my case, I still have a bit of a violence phobia.
Demo, maa, nagurareru no suki na yatsu nante inai kedo ne."
Although, you know, I doubt that there's anyone who enjoys being hit."
Hanashi-nagara, fu to omou.
While he was talking, it suddenly occurred to him.
Konna fuu ni, jibun no kako o toutou to shabetta koto'tte atta'kke, to.
//Have I ever talked about my past this way before...?//
Itsu mo shiranai uchi ni uwasa ni natte shimau kara, jibun kara hanasu hitsuyou nante nakatta.
It would always become gossip before he even realized it, so he never had to tell anyone before.
Demo, jissai kuchi ni shite miru to, mou kono teido no koto na n'da'tte wakatte, ho'tto shiteru jibun ga iru.
But now that he actually said the words, he understood that it wasn't such a big deal anymore, and a part of him was relieved.
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