On another forum I was asked what I liked about the navy. My first response was that it was only six years of my life. (No disrespect meant to retired chiefs here, M.) I remember, when I was a squid, all the regrets told me by older ex-squids: "I shoulda stayed in. I coulda retired by now. Don't you make the same mistake, son."
I promised I wouldn't make the same mistake.
I would remember why I couldn't wait to get out and how hard I laughed at reenlistment back in 1985.
It's not that I wanted to hold a grudge, really. Okay, a little. I just didn't want to have regrets about that particular road not taken. Nostalgia, our inner opiate, allows us to see only the good times glistening in amber. How could we have walked away from something so beautiful? So I wanted to remember the bullshit and the frustration and the stupidity and all the people who put the petty in Petty Officer.
We anchored just outside Auckland harbor which meant that at least one reactor plant would be operating to provide power and fresh water. I had a midnight watch and I wanted to go ashore for a little while, so I made an arrangement with Tim, the guy I was going to replace. If I'm late, I said, please cover for me. I wouldn't be long, but as we had high seas, the liberty boats might take a little longer to get me back. I would even take an extra shift for him so he could go ashore. He agreed.
I was only 20 minutes late for my watch but Tim was pissed. He thought he had had to wait
too long. He retaliated by tattling to my chief. Chief K didn't really care about our agreement, saying it was my responsibility to be there. Period. So he took away a day of liberty and gave me four hours of Remedial Military Instruction for my crime. "Maybe you'll learn a lesson, Touchberry."
Sure. I couldn't trust that asshole Tim.
The next day I was on the main deck with another lesson-learner pouring lube oil from a 55-gallon drum. It was sunny but frigid with winds whipping at around 50 mph. Someone had forgotten to top 'er off before we left our last port, and the only way to get lube oil on board was through this obscure two-inch piping connection beneath a brass fitting on the port deck near the aft superstructure.
You've added oil to your engine, right? A funnel really helps. For some reason, a pump and a hose or even a funnel were out of the question, so we poured. We gently tipped the 300-pound drum and... missed. A lot. Gusting 50-mph winds blew our little stream of lube oil all over the deck. After 45 minutes of this we had drained the barrel and put 30 or so gallons into the hole.
One down, six to go.
We fashioned a funnel somehow and began again, but the wind blew the funnel overboard. We shielded the lube oil stream from the wind as best we could and poured for hours. And as we poured, through chattering teeth I vowed that if anyone ever asked why-I-got-out-instead- of-reenlisting-and-wasn't-it-a-shame-cuz-I-could-have-retired-by-now I would remember this moment and smile, if not flip them off.
The other moment I vowed to remember was spending my first wedding anniversary in a dark, steamy night club in Subic Bay, the Philippines, then world-reknown den of iniquity, in the middle of a nine-month cruise, heartsick without Julie, feeling very sorry for myself, surrounded by barely-dressed Filipina "entertainers" shouting in my ear, grabbing at me, trying to con me into buying them overpriced drinks (which was only one way they made money,) while an AC/DC cover band screeched onstage and, mercifully, got better with every San Miguel I drank.
But this was supposed to be about the things I liked about the navy. I liked Sunday breakfasts with real eggs. The smell of bread baking when I came up from the engineroom for fresh coffee or bug juice. The awesome rooster tail at ahead flank. The cloudless sky and endless sea of stars in the Indian Ocean. The turbospeed bridge games we played in our living compartment lounge during lunch. The phosphorescence of our wake, and the dolphins playing in it. Sunrise in the Caribbean. Standing on the fantail in the morning with a tropical dew and a gentle breeze. The first step onto foreign soil. The adrenaline rush of restarting the turbine generators in casualty drills faster than anyone else onboard at the time. Eating popcorn from the ship's store while watching the evening movie. Camaraderie.
It wasn't all bad. I wonder what it's like now to go underway with email and the web available. Do they lessen the loneliness? Maybe not; maybe talking to people you can't touch is just as bittersweet now as before. One thing I'm pretty sure of is that the tradition-bound surface navy hasn't given up rewarding the idiotic and the truly petty.