The Vice of Surrealism
The first time I killed myself was to annoy my mistress. This
virtuous creature refused suddenly to sleep with me, overcome, she
said, by remorse for betraying her number-one lover. I am not quite
sure I loved her; I suspect that a fortnight's absence would have
singularly lessened the need I had of her; her refusal exasperated me.
How to punish her? Did I say she retained a deep and lasting tenderness
for me? I killed myself to annoy my mistress. I was forgiven this
suicide in consideration of my extreme youth at the time of this
The second time I killed myself was from laziness. Poor and having a
premature horror of every kind of work, I killed myself one day,
without conviction, as I had lived. They do not blame me for this death
when they see how well I look today.
Jacques Rigaut, December 1920 Litterature