That Eric does not recognize my nature is frustrating. After our
years in Gaele, I thought he would understand me enough to know I am more
assassin than mother. But perhaps it is better this way, for if he
understood all my motives he might not like me as well.
I will retrieve Nicholas if I can, because Eric wishes it, because it
demonstrates my loyalty, and because it may, after all, be a good
At least Eric told me of the plan. We have advanced that far.
These Chaosites are poor opponents in battle. I'll remember that.
But Nicholas' new allies disturb me. More powers to contend with.
Turning Hendrake to stone...had we not blasted sorcerers enough?
Nicholas' return changes much. I must seek an early audience and tell
him of certain matters. If he learns elsewhere that I have regained my
shape, he may doubt me. Loyalty and earnest motherhood are cloaks I must
The situation has altered. He has had a hundred years to grow and
change and become, yes, more a king. I'll not deny that. He still is not
my king. And has not released me from coercion. I'll not freely serve
where I am bound.
Not act against the family? Why single me out for such distinction?
He holds me for more than the sake of appearances. Or he cares too much
for appearances to be much of a king. And I don't choose to underestimate
I am sworn to the crown, perhaps to he who wears it. But his heirs I
can arrange to my own discretion.
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