From Kris.Fazzari@um.cc.umich.edu Thu Feb 24 15:42:40 1994
Date: Wed, 23 Feb 94 11:31:54 EST
From: Kris.Fazzari@um.cc.umich.edu
To: thari@umich.edu
Subject: Ariana's Diary

Maui, year 3, day 268
 
        I bought gun today.  I'm not sure how much good it will do if 
I'm attacked, but I can't carry Alastor around openly here, and I'm 
starting to feel the need for some protection.  I've been paying 
special attention to Mark's mannerisms, words, etc., but I can find 
nothing that indicates he is anything other than what he appears to 
be.  Then again, I was perfectly convinced that Vetch was Martin. 
Where is Alex, anyway?  I wish I had a trump of him so I could talk 
to him directly.  Felix can be forgetful sometimes.  I'd better trump 
him and see if he passed my message along to Alex.  Besides, if I'm 
going to stay here, I'd like to have Kira, Randal, Arn, Lorin and Jan 
join me, and Felix could pass them through to me.
 
        Felix forgot.  I'm not really surprised with all he's had to deal 
with lately.  No one has told Random about the plot Murine was a 
part of.  Ahab has offered to take care of it, so at least something will 
be accomplished.  Felix promised to talk to Alex as soon as he gets 
back to Amber.  I hope Alex can help.  He seems the best person to 
ask about how to determine if someone is a shapeshifter, or from 
Chaos, or both.  Some of my aunts and uncles might know as well, but 
I really don't know who to ask.  I'll give Alex a couple of days.
 
Maui, year 3, day 270
 
        I think Mark is going to ask me to marry him.  This precipitates 
things.  I'm going to have to tell him the truth about me.  It wouldn't 
be fair to him otherwise.  I just need to find the right moment.
 
        Mark wants to name the child Frank.  Or Vincent.  I much 
prefer the latter.  Frank is just so... blunt.  The only one of my 
suggestions he liked was Jason.  Well, we have plenty of time to 
decide.  At least he didn't object to my desire to name the child 
Jalana if it's a girl.
 
Maui, year 3, day 271
 
        I have been a stupid fool.  The plotters tried to kidnap Foster, 
and they did kidnap Kimdyl.  Fortunately Ahab was able to rescue 
her, although it seems she's lost another three months since she's 
currently in labor.  I have been relying on others to deal with the 
problem because I was afraid to face it.  I don't have that luxury 
anymore.  I certainly can't afford to wait for Alex to get around to 
helping me.  It occurs to me that Benedict was able to identify Alex 
as a Chaosite the first time he laid eyes on him.  I intend to ask for 
his assistance in my case.  If he will not help me, I will find someone 
else who will.  I can no longer risk the safety of my child on foolish 
hopes.  If Mark is what he says he is, then perhaps I will remain 
here.  I doubt it though.  After what happened to Foster and Kimdyl, 
I don't feel very safe here.  But if Mark is part of the Chaosite plot 
and plans to steal my child away from me...  I will drain his mind of 
every useful bit of information.  Then I will make sure he suffers 
before he dies.