Foil, year 53, day 110 continued

Afternoon

	Fiona returned, but thankfully she didn't stay for long.  She's 
finally decided to allow Lavender to leave Foil.  I wonder what 
Lavender will think of Amber?  In the meantime, I have the library 
to myself.  Maybe I'll find the answers to some of my questions.

	Gods, no wonder Lavender hates the na siogai.  They killed 
both of her sisters and her niece because they were half-breeds.  
What kind of people are these?  To kill someone simply because they 
have mixed blood?  Do all Faeries feel this way?  What about the 
twins?  They are of mixed blood as well...  Riftvan claims it's only the 
Faeries here who feel this way.  I wish that reassured me, but it does 
not.  I don't care if this is the hinterlands, we're stuck here for the 
next two weeks.  I was right about one thing, though.  Riftvan has 
been here before.  He even knew of Calamus, who apparently sold his 
family out to the na siogai.  What kind of man would do that?  I wish 
I understood how Foil is connected to Tir-na Nog'th.  That there is a 
connection is undeniable  It seems that during certain phases of the 
moon one can circumvent Tir-na Nog'th's trump barrier, which is 
why I was able to trump Riftvan from there.  It's too similar to the 
way the city in the sky comes and goes to be a coincidence.  Riftvan 
wouldn't explain, of course.  He said it would spoil the fun.  Somehow 
I don't find that a very compelling argument.

Evening

	Oooh, I'm going to kill him when he wakes up!  I can't believe 
he did that.  In the name of all the gods, what was he thinking?  We 
are Lavender's guests!  I don't think I've ever seen him like this 
before.  Eral knows, after what Sand put him through, I can 
understand wanting to get drunk.  When I couldn't find him or the 
children, the urge to just lose myself in a drunken haze was hard to 
resist.  And I guess I can understand his miscalculating the effects of 
the wine when he's used to being able to counter them.  But they 
way he acted...  It was mean-spirited and Lavender didn't deserve it.  
Someone like Usires definitely, but not Lavender.  And he broke his 
promise to me.  I know he was drunk, but alcohol only removes one's 
inhibitions so far.  If his word meant nothing to him drunk, I have to 
wonder if it meant anything to him sober.  At least he didn't break 
his promise about going into my mind. although he threatened to.  I 
suppose that means something.  Mostly he just acted like a spoiled 
child.  Was he like that when he was young?  No wonder he has so 
many enemies.  I'm just so angry with him.  Dalt attacked Amber, 
along with Shard of all people, and I should have been there to help 
defend her, not playing nursemaid to a 3,000 year old man who 
should have known better.  Not that Dalt had a chance with Benedict 
present, but still...  I won't forgive Riftvan so easily for this night's 
work.

	I don't care what Benedict says, I don't think we can wait much 
longer to deal with Sand.  From what Felix told me, she may be 
responsible for Shard's recent behavior.  Eral knows what other 
mischief she's been up to.  How much more time can we waste while 
she builds up her forces?  At least Random is back, so we may move 
against her soon.  If it really is Random.  Felix sounded like he had 
his doubts.  I need to find out more about what's happening there.  
But that can wait until tomorrow morning.  Right now, I'm going to 
get some sleep.  Assuming the nightmares don't return.