What am I, an idiot? To think that those cards had any knowledge
of the future. Only Graham can determine what his future is. I prefer
Chaos, so I will raise him here and in Shadow, and the cards be damned.
He is a growing so quickly. As are my responsibilities. What was Kaedric
thinking, why does he think that I am capable of being a good council
member? My education is so lacking, I have no idea how one gets from a
gun to those mecha things of Mok's. I must go out into Shadow and learn,
but every day something new happens to delay my departure. Hopefully, I
will be able to reach Ulysses soon, so that I can get in touch with Isaac.
Once that is done, I can go out in Shadow with Orrin and Graham. I need
to learn things that others take for granted. For instance, how does one
make things? And how does one get, what was the word Kaedric used, a
printed book? For that matter what about the medicine that Gerard gave
me? How did that get discovered?? And what is a thermonuclear device??
Or how did Archimedes make a talking piece of metal? So many things to
discover. I know the others look at me as though I am an idiot, but that
is not the case. I will learn these things, so at least I will not feel
inferior to them. I may never be able to draw a single Trump, but I will
be able to understand what they are talking about.
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