Cordelia, Diary 2

 Either Jared's stupid or he's never had to approach anything obliquely before. I'm not sure what he expected to accomplished by waving his sword around. Even if these are the people who have his mother, threatening a large group of people hardly seems like sound strategy. If he gets himself killed or imprisoned, what'll happen to his mother?

 Besides, if it was an enemy that left that stone, he should have encountered trouble shortly after leaving his home world. Sending him to this Amber place seems counterproductive (unless he manages to provoke these people into killing him...). After all, he might come back, and if he did he'd probably have allies better equipped to deal with the problem than he is.

 I hate to say it of someone who's been kind to me, but I don't think Jared's very mentally flexible. I don't think he's ever been helpless before.

 Well, even if he runs into trouble and can't get other help finding his mother, I'll do what I can. I have no idea what that might be, but I'll try. Perhaps if Trump artists are so rare in this place I can bargain with that. It would feel good to have some power for once.

 I'm not sure how to react to these people. They claim that I'm related to them and that they'll take care of me, but I really know nothing about them. They seem to come from all over the place. At least Fayne and Mythos seem to understand a bit more of what I say than Jared does, and they can translate some of what he says. I'm not sure they're getting it right, but...

 They also gave me new things willingly, without my having to ask. Ice cream. Clean clothing. A chance to use a gun. That was wonderful. I've never held a real weapon before.

 The idea that I have a family seems to imply that Evara's slaves are born normal and then altered. I suppose I could still just have been made from whatever materials were handy and that just happened to include stuff from some member of this family. I'd almost rather think that I didn't have parents in the normal way. If I had parents, they allowed what was done to me. These people are obviously capable of having taken me out of there at any time, but they appear not to have even been aware that I existed.

 I think my position with them may be rather tenuous. I don't think they realize that I'm not actually human, what changes the mages and the scientists made. I don't even know all of the changes... I probably shouldn't have mentioned shape shifting, although Mythos seemed to consider it commonplace; it leads in directions I don't want people to go. I like being treated as a person rather than as a thing.

 Amber's probably the safest place I've been since I ran. I have food, clothing, water to bathe in. I just don't know what happens next. Is this another prison? Everyone's seemed kind so far even though they don't have to be. It's got to be better than Evara or that other place. Doesn't it?



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